I’ll aways need something to fix…
If no one stops me.
Archive for October, 2007
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Today was one hell of a day. It is now 3AM.
It started out like the 2003 fires. Everyone was on alert to evacuate. Kirsten (KT) and Jason and the boys plus family and dogs and cats came down to San Diego. Norm, KT’s Dad braved the fire to rescue their other dogs. I spent the day with the boys, keeping them occupied and took in 3 cats. Ultimately, we just waited and watched. Michelle then evacuated to my house “just in case.” There are now 3 dogs and 5 cats at my house. Michelle and her friend Reid are sleeping in my living room.
Michelle, her friend and I watched television to keep our minds off the fires. Tonight was quiet, but then we got the word from her mother that Spring Valley was being evacuated. After an hour of deliberating, we didn’t know if we should go after her dogs or not. We decided to go. The fire was close. She started crying, but we assured her we’d get to her house to get her animals.We could see it on the hillside. At her apartment complex, residents were packing and leaving. The glow of the fire could be seen from her house, just over the hill in Spring Valley, which is only 15 minutes away from my house. The fire was so close we could smell everything and feel smoke in our lungs. The embers were flying.
By the time we left, there was a mandatory evacuation of Spring Valley. We had gotten out in time. The fire was creeping closer and closer on the hillside. From my house, on Navajo Road, we could see the fire in the distance. It’s only a matter of time and chance of strong winds that will bring the fire to my door. Tomorrow I start packing. This is too similar to 2003′s firestorm.
The fire we’ve been watching all day was the Witch Creek Fire. The fire I should have been watching was the Harris Fire.
The lights just flickered. Power has been intermittent for many residents in the county. Hopefully we’ll have power in the morning.
Scale: For scale, this map is about 30 miles (about 50 km)across from coast line to the edge of the jpeg image. It’s about 45 miles (or about 70km) from the bottom of the image (US/Mexico border) to the top of the jpeg image.
I get nervous when there’s a fire of this magnitude. KT and Jay and the kids and the rents are evacuated from Ramona. In tow are many animals. They are safe and sound in my neighborhood though. KT and Jay are with his parents. Not sure where everyone else is. It was shocking to hear that the fire spread so quickly yesterday. I told Kirsten they’d better get packed and get outta there since it was so close to Ramona. Their fears were further exemplified when they could see the blaze and smoke from their home. They left last night. Everyone is safe though, but hopefully it won’t come down this way again as it did in 2003 (I don’t want to have to stay with my mom 
).
This morning, it seems the fire has all but engulfed Ramona. I’m going to help in anyway I can. I’m taking in Kirsten and Jason’s cats.
Take a look at the fire maps.
The fire after 2 days…
Compare this to the 4 days in 2003 (I made this 4 years ago):
We played Texas Hold Em for a charity over the weekend. I’m not that good. I got murdered… by family none-the-less. $20 bucks to buy in and we win booze. Of course we had to bring the booze as well, and I lost pretty bad. I was the 3rd eliminated. She can read me like a book! Plus she kept getting aces, so I think she was cheating.
Because I’m going to be busy for a few days, I’ve decided to do easter eggs on this website for which you have to guess the password:
Easter Eggs are up. Easter Eggs are little surprises in things like DVDs, so I decided to make it for my comic. For the first Easter Egg, you’ll have to know the full name of the character that says my “favorite quote” in a movie that “Seals the Deal” (first name, last name, all lowercase, no spaces between first and last name). The Easter Egg will have pictures and stuff, and potentially another egg. How about that? An egg within an egg? It’s like that cartoon Garfield and Friends… when Sheldon finally hatched, there was just another egg.
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Michele invited me to Last Call a few nights ago and I completely forgot to tell the world about it. Good place. Cheap booze. Michele made flour-less chocolate cake. It was amazing. I met her buddy Colin and we’re starting a band based on the fact we both have eternally broken hearts and tons of music. Her roommate Logan was there to make sure we got drunk. I think she wanted to take advantage of us, but don’t quote me on that since there was no advantage taking (of me anyway). We met a girl that night that jammed out in the bar. She was pretty good–from Milwaukee. She didn’t look old enough to be in the bar though.
I’ll be playing there tonight at 9PM. New songs. New emotions. Just for fun.
Wow, an unexpected surprise. The guys I worked with overseas commented on my comic 
Today I started working on new projects. I feel great about them. I just have to hire some php/mysql people now. If i’m to be a millionaire by 30, I better get started. So far, I have a great place to live and unlimited resources of happiness through my friends. They’ve all banded together to make me feel better about life. Of course, the things I really want seem to be gone for now. Who knows right? Things happen for a reason. There are so many things I could have done differently that last night. I thought we had all the time in the world, and we still do. I still have hope. I still believe in love. I’m still who I am because I choose to be this way. Nothing is going to change that.
Today was a bad day. It’s been a bad week actually. My life at work ended with the signature on a single white piece of paper. To all the people that read this, friends, strangers, enemies, this chapter is closed.
She told me she was going to break his heart, but instead she broke mine.
Fitting line for a song about me. The song I wrote will remain unfinished. There’s no inspiration now. I realized something today… maybe she doesn’t want to be rescued. I stood there. Cold from the rain, shivering from fear, and thought this. Then walked away. I just can’t understand how my life got so bad from Sunday to Monday. Sunday I was with mom, having dinner. Explaining my situation. I have NEVER opened up to her about anything. She told me to do what I think is right. Of all the things my mother could have said, she told me to do it because it made me happy. Maybe she’s never seen me really happy? Maybe she’s not the bitter old woman I thought she was. Maybe she just loves her son, as mothers do love their children. I was raised by a single mom. She was the best mom ever. She did what was best for me.
So this chapter is closed, not by my hand, but by another. I can’t change anything, and I wouldn’t care to. I’m just sad there was no closure. No “Fuck you, Eddie.” I think I would have been happier with that then nothing. I sat around today at home thinking about what to do next.
That company isn’t going to run itself. So I decided I’m going back to work for myself. It’s what makes me happy. I will hire Liz because she wants to work with me. I also want Nicci. People I can trust. If they’re in the Square of Trust, then I want them. I want to run the show. I want my name to be back out there like when I was a young, arrogant hotshot in LA way back when–going to NYC, Chicago, anywhere I wanted. It was my lonely adventure. It seems like a faded memory now, but it’s me. I don’t ever not want to be myself. I’ve learned a lot in such a short period of time. I will never forget it. I will never forget you.
Sometimes things happen for a reason. One minute life is perfect. The next, what you thought was perfect comes crashing down on you. People you thought you trusted cannot be trusted. People disappear without a trace. Friends, gone. Family, gone. All that’s left is you, and you’re ability to change. Adapt.
Windy wrote me that some times people commit to these ideas even though they are unhappy. They are scared of change. And in some cases, they commit to these ideas because they have to, and would do anything to try to change, but can’t bring themselves to do it. It doesn’t make any sense to me. Following my heart is all I’ve ever known.
For my readers this morning, everyone should take a minute and think about the people who have disappeared from their lives. Not lost love, but friends. Think at what cost to you they have contributed misery or love. This is a reflective time.
Vote Petrelli.
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