I’m not going to lie. I’m in love. This weekend, I couldn’t stop thinking about her. COULD NOT. I had a dream about vampires last night and she was in it. I am crazy. I’m going to have to move away to shake it. This shouldn’t be happening, but it is. I could just start poking girls on Facebook like Michelle suggests and see what happens. I could just go out and meet some more girls. That won’t solve anything. That’s no cure for love. Love is not a sickness. I wish I could embrace it.

At least I have family to help me. Kirsten’s kids are awesome. I spent Friday and Saturday with them. We watched Meet the Robinsons last night. It’s about a super smart orphan who longs to meet his real mother, yet is waiting to be adopted by a family. It’s cute. After the kids went to bed, KT and I watched Epic Movie. It was mediocre at best.

In the morning, we took the kids to their soccer game. It was fun. I was taking shots off the little one and trying to get the older one to focus on his dribbling. Controlling the ball is a big thing in soccer.

Kirsten and I got to talking about “control.” I was controlled by my mother most of my life, so I finally got a taste of freedom and loved it. She yelled at me yesterday (about my life and my future). I told her about what happened between me and the last one. She told me it was hard for her as a single mom. We always came first in her life. I hate to admit it, but she’s right. My child would always come first. I couldn’t image the personal sacrifice… but I understand. You gotta be able to stand up for yourself and be happy to move on. I can’t believe I’m still stuck, but I guess that’s love. Time is irrelevant.

We went to see Bee Movie today. It was pretty funny. Wacky, yet slightly odd. I feel like this is turning into a Live Journal post. I miss the kids already. I’m going to have kids some day. Just gotta seal the deal. I’m probably just holding on to false hope, but it’s the only hope I’ve got these days. At this point, I know it’s impossible. At least I have kids who look up to me and little minds to shape.

Today was another day with the evacuees. My house is trashed, but instead of cleaning, I went to see the Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D at the movie theater. Very awesome. We went to lunch before hand and Ethan is definitely the messiest eater I’ve ever seen. Jason paid me an amazing compliment. The dogs are fine, but KT’s car is still stuck in Ramona. Hopefully everyone will be able to return tomorrow. The fires are moving out east now threatening other homes. Hopefully the all the fires will be 100% contained by next week.

Me and the boys in the car, Anthony and Ethan.

KT wearing 3D glasses (Jason’s rabbit ears).

The messiest eater in the world, Ethan. Note the bib I gave him which did absolutely nothing to prevent him getting pasta all over himself. Somehow, he also got pasta behind his ears.

Drake and Josh is pretty over the top, yet hilarious. Spending so much time with kids lately, I’ve been watching a lot of Cartoon Network and Nickelodeon. Also, I didn’t know the show took place in San Diego (I wonder if they had to evacuate?) I can see why kids are into it. It’s very silly.

KT, Jason and the kids left a little bit ago and I need to start cleaning. It’s nice having Kirsten so close these past few days, but it makes me wish I had my own family. I wish life wasn’t so complicated

Today was one hell of a day. It is now 3AM.

It started out like the 2003 fires. Everyone was on alert to evacuate. Kirsten (KT) and Jason and the boys plus family and dogs and cats came down to San Diego. Norm, KT’s Dad braved the fire to rescue their other dogs. I spent the day with the boys, keeping them occupied and took in 3 cats. Ultimately, we just waited and watched. Michelle then evacuated to my house “just in case.” There are now 3 dogs and 5 cats at my house. Michelle and her friend Reid are sleeping in my living room.

Michelle, her friend and I watched television to keep our minds off the fires. Tonight was quiet, but then we got the word from her mother that Spring Valley was being evacuated. After an hour of deliberating, we didn’t know if we should go after her dogs or not. We decided to go. The fire was close. She started crying, but we assured her we’d get to her house to get her animals.We could see it on the hillside. At her apartment complex, residents were packing and leaving. The glow of the fire could be seen from her house, just over the hill in Spring Valley, which is only 15 minutes away from my house. The fire was so close we could smell everything and feel smoke in our lungs. The embers were flying.

By the time we left, there was a mandatory evacuation of Spring Valley. We had gotten out in time. The fire was creeping closer and closer on the hillside. From my house, on Navajo Road, we could see the fire in the distance. It’s only a matter of time and chance of strong winds that will bring the fire to my door. Tomorrow I start packing. This is too similar to 2003′s firestorm.

The fire we’ve been watching all day was the Witch Creek Fire. The fire I should have been watching was the Harris Fire.

The lights just flickered. Power has been intermittent for many residents in the county. Hopefully we’ll have power in the morning.

Scale: For scale, this map is about 30 miles (about 50 km)across from coast line to the edge of the jpeg image. It’s about 45 miles (or about 70km) from the bottom of the image (US/Mexico border) to the top of the jpeg image.

We played Texas Hold Em for a charity over the weekend. I’m not that good. I got murdered… by family none-the-less. $20 bucks to buy in and we win booze. Of course we had to bring the booze as well, and I lost pretty bad. I was the 3rd eliminated. She can read me like a book! Plus she kept getting aces, so I think she was cheating.

Because I’m going to be busy for a few days, I’ve decided to do easter eggs on this website for which you have to guess the password:

Easter Eggs are up. Easter Eggs are little surprises in things like DVDs, so I decided to make it for my comic. For the first Easter Egg, you’ll have to know the full name of the character that says my “favorite quote” in a movie that “Seals the Deal” (first name, last name, all lowercase, no spaces between first and last name). The Easter Egg will have pictures and stuff, and potentially another egg. How about that? An egg within an egg? It’s like that cartoon Garfield and Friends… when Sheldon finally hatched, there was just another egg.

eDDIE’S eASTER eGG No. 1… click here!

Oh my how times have changed…

KT has to tell Eddie like it is. 9 AM youth soccer pwns.

KT loves me… But she ain’t my little sister anymore.